A Year In The Life (Favorites from 2018)
Wow, it’s been a while since I did one of these, let’s see if I remember how to do this. As some of you know, last year was pretty wild for me. In the spring my relationship of 3 years ended. Even though it was hard, her and I knew it was the right thing to do for both of us. The love was there but sometimes that’s just not enough and that can be difficult to come to terms with. During that same time my good friend Tyler was in the Bay Area slowly getting ready for a road trip to NYC where he had a job lined up for the summer. After a quick phone call he said he had room for one more and like that, I decided to quit my job and bought a one way ticket that left a week later with no expectations other than to make photographs and clear my head.
What followed turned into a 14 month long journey spanning nearly 30k miles of travel around the US and Mexico via planes trains and automobiles with a 4 month pit stop in NYC for the summer. Another cool thing that happened was I adopted a minimalist lifestyle. Throughout my life I’ve had the opportunity to live out of a backpack and travel a fair amount. Each time it opens my eyes to what I need in life and the things I can live without. After 3 months of travel I had to go back to Denver and get our apartment move out ready. It was during this time I got rid of 90% of my stuff. I packed up most of my art collection, and my prized possessions that fit into a 16x16x16 box and mailed it to my parents house in Arizona before flying back to NYC for the remainder of the summer. Tyler and I rented a 10ft by 10ft music studio to live out of in Brooklyn. The price was right and I didn’t need to get a job so I could focus all my time and energy into creating what would be my 2nd photo magazine.
The following images are in no specific order other than divided between color and BW. I think it’s also worth mentioning that I go out of my way to do everything right in camera so all these images are uncropped unless I mention otherwise.
^(Cropped or Straightened)
The year of 2018 was huge in terms of mental growth. While I probably still have a fault list longer than a roll of 2-ply toilet paper, I’ve undoubtedly made progress. More recently, I’ve really been getting clear on my values. I’m also starting to recognize and take pride in the fact that I have achieved a lot of goals I’ve set for myself over my lifetime. For more years than I can remember, I really haven’t liked myself and so I probably haven’t given myself or others the credit or care I should have. All that is starting to change as I’m recognizing my own self worth for being the imperfect person that I am versus seeking validation through being talented at something. After so many years of praise it’s mostly all become so valueless to me. That’s a big reason in 2019 I’ve deactivated comments on my social media. If I put an image out for people to see, it’s because I love and believe in it. If it gets 0 or 1000 likes and comments it’s not going to change how I feel about it. At the end of the day, the feeling of being proud of myself or my work belongs to me and me alone.